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[cameraluvshiba]

I woke up this morning and Setsuko-nee-chan called. She told me that I was an irresponsible mother for divorcing somebody when I have a child and that I was setting a bad example for Hikaru. I told her that Nakamura-san was the bad example. I don't how physical abuse is a good example for anyone. I shouldn't have even put up with it for the two years that I did....

I still have scars down my stomach from where he hit me. I don't ever wear bikinis anymore, like I used to. I'm still so ashamed. I'm glad that I managed to hide that from Hikaru. All he knew was that daddy shouted a lot. He doesn't know that daddy was an abusive drunk. I'm so grateful....

I think I need to change my phone number. Nakamura keeps calling, and his friends keep calling and now Setsuko's heaping on the abuse as well. Hikaru and my job as still pleasures though, and keep me sane. You make the best of what you have in your life....but I can't help but wonder might have happened if I'd told Inoue-senpai that I liked him, back in work experience.